Psalm 113:9
He settles the childless woman in her home
as a happy mother of children.
Praise the LORD.
I have longed wonder if I will ever have a child. Even at the time I was pregnant for only week 8, I still couldnt believe that I had a child inside me. But God was my refuge and deliverer, that when Ive had an ectopic pregnancy, I knew He was leading me into something really great.
The Psalm 113:9 has given me much understanding, and all the BARREN or CHILDLESS WOMEN in the Bible which has given me an inspiration to relinguish the control on GOD. It is not for me to decide whether I would have a child or not, but rather my Heavenly Father's will.
Sarai (or Sarah), Rebekah, Elizabeth, Esther, Dorcas (Tabitha), but the most noted infertile in the Bible is Hannah, the mother of Samuel.
We see the depth of her pain physically, emotionally, and spiritually. She was often consumed by her thoughts of infertility—she went alone to the temple and cried her heart out to God. She made drastic promises to the Lord in hopes she would be given a child. She was stabbed with the pain of watching other women bear children with no problem. In Hannah, we see a complete picture of the pain of infertility.
I learned how to pray like that of Hannah's. But as much as I want to beg and ask for mercy, I am acknowledging GOD as my creator and so as if He decides me and my husband as the earthly parents of His creation, that is just a PLUS and a BONUS to His servant.
You'd know that God's hand is at work in my womb because God has led us to a Fertility Specialist, and to cope up with this process must also been AND SHOULD ONLY BE INSPIRED BY THE LORD'S SPIRIT AND GLORY. It is absolutely FREE in England and imagine the provision of Health Care to a childless woman, it could have only from the Lord God, isnt it?
HE WILL KEEP MY HEART AND MIND GUARDED WITH PEACE, LOVE AND GENTLENESS as we go through this FERTILITY PROCESS because I know for some, it will be entirely exhausting and troubling.
But only thing that has given me PEACE and CONTENTMENT above all this provisions is that, I have GOD with me, and He has my attention as well. So I am not worried at all, CHILDLESS OR WITH A CHILD... I AM A CHILD OF GOD..
To GOD be all the glory and praise.
