My second..

it gives me joy whenever i look at baby pictures.. their chuby cheeks, loving eyes, sweet smiles that shows their innocence.. even i love to hear baby's laugh and i can stay all day in youtube.com listening to the sound of their voice, giggles and naughty little acts..

in 2000 before millenium Y2K was celebrated by everyone i was having a nervous breakdown.. i have taken away the joy of my little one and did not welcome her to be brought on this earth.. my first was supposedly a perfect joy.. but that was a mistake that has been forgiven.. even will continue to be a lesson learned until i die..

now 2010, as hope and chances are given by GOD to any human being on this earth.. i got married to a loving man.. so now is the perfect chance to wait patiently for "my second".. not only because i am ready to become a mom but also it is my loving gift to my loving husband.. in my heart i know i can cover up with the losses with my first.. and my second will give me the hope that my first has been taken care of.. by my saviour, JESUS CHRIST..

my second, will now welcome you in my arms and when that day comes, i will make sure you will experience the same love and respect which my first one also deserves..

thanking you Lord for this privilege.. if its not your will, Lord, then we are also ready to love any other child for your glory..

for the meantime, let GOD prepare you for your coming as He has chosen you to be our loving SECOND.. so by His GRACE and perfect timing, me and your dad are preparing for your arrival..

in His loving mercy and grace, we will see you soon my love..

MORNING PRAISES

FATHER GOD, as always, it is an amazing day and eventough I woke up 11 in the morning, the first thing that came into my mind is PRAISING YOU.. The service of Pastor Peter Tan-chi mentioned there is nothing like worshipping GOD from the heart and as I always ask you to come into my heart, this is my morning praise from the heart:

THANK YOU FATHER FOR THE BLESSING EACH DAY THE SUN RISES...
THE MORNINGS THAT ALWAYS FILLED MY HEART WITH HOPE..
HOPE THAT ANOTHER DAY HAS COME TO SERVE YOU..
HOPE THAT ANOTHER DAY HAS COME TO SHOW MY FAITHFUL LOVE TO YOU ABOVE ELSE..
AND I WOULD RECALL IF I HAVE DONE THINGS TO HURT YOU YESTERDAY..
THE HOPE THAT GIVES ME ANOTHER DAY TO BRING YOU ANOTHER SOUL TO MAKE IT RIGHT..
THE HOPE THAT MY LOVED ONES, ESPECIALLY MY HUSBAND AND MY MOTHER, WILL REALIZE THROUGH YOUR GRACE THE TRUTH ABOUT THEIR PURPOSE IN LIFE.. SO THERE IS HOPE ON THEM TO JOIN ME IN PRAISING YOU SOMEDAY..
AND THE HOPE TO WITNESS THE TRANSFORMATION AND PROGRESS OF MY COUNTRY (PHILIPPINES) BY YOUR GRACE TO TAKE AWAY THE CURSE OF POVERTY, CORRUPTION AND CHILD PROSTITUTION.. AND OTHER THINGS LORD GOD, LET ME WITNESS EACH DAY THAT FILIPINO CHILDREN WILL BE TOUCHED BY YOUR POWER THAT THEY WILL BECOME THE NEXT GENERATION YOU WANT THEM TO BE..
THE HOPE EACH DAY YOU GIVE ME ANOTHER DAY ON THIS EARTH, TO WITNESS THE TRANSFORMATION OF PEOPLE'S LIVES YOU'VE TOUCHED.. AND BY YOUR MERCY AND
POWERFUL GRACE, TO TOUCH MY LIFE THAT I MAY ALWAYS HAVE A PATIENT HEART,
AND WISDOM TO UNDERSTAND THE THINGS YOU WANT ME TO KNOW..

THANK YOU.. THANK YOU FOR THIS PRIVELEGE OF WANTING TO BE WITH YOU AND BE
A LIVING INSTRUMENT OF YOUR LOVE TO MANKIND..

THANK YOU FOR YOUR MERCY, YOUR FAITHFULNESS AND YOUR FORGIVENESS TO MY UNGRATEFULNESS WHEN THE HOLY SPIRIT TRIED TO COUNSEL ME WITH CHRIST-LIKE WAYS..

THANK YOU FOR THE HOPE YOU HAVE GIVEN ME TODAY.. AND IF I WILL BE GIVEN ANOTHER
PRIVELEGE TOMORROW.. THANKING YOU IN ADVANCE.. AS YOU WOULD BLESS ME EACH DAY I WAKE UP, I WANT TO BE A BLESSING TO OTHERS..

THRU THE MIGHTY NAME OF JESUS CHRIST, AMEN..

Luke 22:42 HCSB
“…not My will, but Yours, be done.”

Colossians 1:11-12 NRSV
may you be prepared to endure everything with patience, while joyfully 12 giving thanks to the Father, who has enabled you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the light.

Psalm 19:14 HCSB
May the words of my mouth
and the meditation of my heart
be acceptable to You,
Lord, my rock and my Redeemer.

Psalms 86:11 HCSB
Teach me Your way, Lord,
and I will live by Your truth.
Give me an undivided mind to fear Your name.

Luke 9:23 HCSB
If anyone wants to come with Me, he must deny himself, take up his cross daily, and follow Me.

HEALING and the SPIRITUAL WARFARE i am into..

Ironically, our body reacts to the wrong doings we did to our body. If we dont take care of our body, we need a doctor to help us get back on our normal healthy body. Or probability, you take care of your body by eating well, physical activities like exercise, google for home remedies, etc. etc.. because once there is pain or hurt, you just want to take it away by doing anything just to ease the pain..

Does it work the same when our spirit or faith need healing? Ironically too, our faith reacts to the wrong doings we did to our FAITH. If we dont take care of our spirit and faith, our pathway will never be the same as we have a normal and healthy spirit or faith.. (same as our physical body)

Our issues in life are manifested when we lose our SPIRIT.. then later worst than that, we lose our FAITH to something inspirational, sometihng far better than good... and issues in life is far worst to handle than our physical body. When we lose our spirit and faith, it leads to issues that are unmanageable and disturbing.

One of my issues is anger management. Sometimes it leads me to hurting people I love and cared for, and more often than not, it hurts me more when I hurt people, and the worst part of it, im hurting my own saviour, JESUS CHRIST. :( Eversince I discovered his undying love for my sins, it really worries me to make him feel sad about my shortcomings. Im seriously working on my patience and even a simple anger, i want to get healed.. and I know it takes a process to do this, my willingness is ther to compensate the hurt I have given to Jesus.

I have stayed away with most of the dreadful sins Ive got and the issues of my life has been straight.. in some other days, its not. The recurrent manifestation of these issues really makes me wonder if I am worthy of His love. My friend clearly defines this as a SPIRITUAL WARFARE. Though I am not afraid, but I need to get ready of any warfare there should be... and this is only through healing.

Healing my heart.. healing my mind.. healing my soul.. healing my past so that I may forgive the things that was done and may never haunt me again.. that I may have wisdom to understand the things that GOD is showing me... that it may drive me to stay away with the usual (sinful) things Ive been doing.. that it may keep me from harming people.. and it may keep me away from hurting my saviour, JESUS.

If this spiritual warfare that I need to face and get rid of.. then so be it.. My love for CHRIST is as undying as His love for me... Though I am powerless at times, but I will do beyond the things I can, just to heal me. and its only THRU JESUS CHRIST and by His HOLY GRACE, HE will heal me on this..

Lord, CONSUME ME with your patient heart, unconditional love and strength.. please take away the ANGER (even simple anger inside me) so I can clearly see and understand what the other people's lacking, that just like you, you will patiently be aware of other people's need and understanding. and from this understanding, I may be able to speak clearly of my CHRIST-LIKE intention on my brothers and sister in this earth. More importantly, I want you to judge me when i finally see you in person, for being your child who attains to be like you and fulfilling my purpose on this eart to be of service to you by being a living instrument of your LOVE.. Forgive me Lord Jesus for falling short of your glory and I acknowlege your powerful hand on me, to take away the unnecessary issues on my life right now.. I thank you for the Holy Spirit when it helps me to have the courage to fight my spiritual warfare.. Lord, I humbly asked you to intervene on this painful hurt inside me so that I can continuously love and serve you mightily.. You alone is the source of the answer to my questions in life.. and now, you are the source of the power to help me go through my spiritual warfare right now.. I asked this through the MOST PRECIOUS NAME OF JESUS.. Amen.

JAMES 3:6 The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

MATTHEW 5: 22 But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brother will be subject to judgment.