my husband is finally coming home..

sooo excited to see my husband again!! Robert is finally coming back home to manila tomorrow afternoon at 1850hrs manila time..(MANILA will always be considered as our HOME even if we are going to live in England).. so to see him after 6 long months is such a blessing.. it was hard yet it was pure blessing because GOD has even strengthen our faith in our marriage..(he needed to leave me in manila so i could work on my settlement-UK visa and he needed to go back to work in UK) so, after our wedding, tomorrow is the actual day to finally start our marriage life together and never be (physically) separated from each other again..

during that 6 long months, it wasn't hard as I thought it should be.. so i offer a simple prayer for the LORD..

Father God, truly you are amazing.. we are privilege to have your presence in our marriage still we humbly ask for your love, courage, wisdom, faithfulness and all the spiritual blessings we need to have you as the center of our marriage life.. we would like to give you the praise and worship for making it all possible for us to be together again and seriously start our marriage.. most important of all, we can finally give praise and worship together.. we offer this love by serving you faithfully and sincerely.. i humbly ask that you bring my husband back home safe here in manila and later on, with your help, Father God, we can accomplish all the necessary things we need to do before our flight back to UK.. and by your powerful grace and loving mercy, we await for the coming of a little gift from you, SAMUEL.. WE ASK THIS THRU THE MIGHTY NAME OF JESUS CHRIST.. AMEN..


TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!!

3 FATHERs

i must be so lucky having 3 fathers: one, who biologically helped my mom to bring me in this world; two, who financially provided for my education and molded me as a good stable person; and three, who has given me both (even more) - literally brought me to life and molded me to become a BETTER person and SUSTAIN my everyday needs in this life..

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to the 3 of you..
My real father (1),
My step father (2),
and FATHER GOD(3)..

words cannot describe my deepest gratitude for making my life complete.. for making me who i am now.. for bringing out the best of me.. and finally fulfilling my purpose in life..

as i surrender my life to the one who has given me, i have forgiven what you have failed to provide.. and hoping you have forgiven my failures too.. my LOVE for all of you are enough to cover the flaws of my life.. knowing your hands are always open to support my downfall, makes me feel complete.

i love everything about you.. TATAY, DADDY, and FATHER GOD.. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY and thank you for the unconditional love you have given me.

and


HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to my loving husband ROBERT.. I LOVE YOU TOO and i continue to praise GOD because of your presence in my life.. you are a loving father to your children and as we await for the coming of our own child, i thank you for being a TRUE GIFT from ABOVE..

Deuteronomy 1:29-31
Then I said to you, "Do not be terrified; do not be afraid of them. The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place." (NIV)

Psalm 103:13
As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him; (NIV)

TIME He has given us.. TIME He will also take away from us..

i never knew how precious time was until i became a faithful servant of JESUS CHRIST. if i remember right, i was still a child when i heard about one of the famous sayings you can write in a 'SLUM BOOK', TIME IS GOLD.

rationally, it actually makes a lot of sense.. it applies to your career, relationships or even hobbies or anything that relates to your everyday life.. getting productive and own accomplishment manifest that we have spend our Time successfully. Indeed its as precious as Gold, because any minute, day, week or a year wasted will never come back.. however it also gives us HOPE to see our future ahead, the time wasted is completely behind us and never it will come back to regain its glory..

when you are one with the Lord.. i mean, reeaaally seek His Righteousness to be pure in thoughts and loving in words.. Holy is the HOly Spirit who will make you understand the meaning of Life..

being a TRUE follower helps you realize that LIFE is not bad at all.. some people or believers consider life as successful if they reached the time of their life when they get accepted by the society or their friends as someone they wanted to be accepted.. A doctor is successful taking his TIME studying and living a productive life as friends or society accepted him to be a famous doctor.. is that a life? or a beggar trying to spend his precious time begging money for food because thats the only ways and means according to him to get his life going.. probably the beggar's life is not a well-spend time because he was not productive making money for a better living..


TIME IS A PRECIOUS "FREE" GIFT from the LORD... even i considered TIME as a PRECIOUS DIAMOND that illuminates pure blessing to serve our purpose on this materialistic world. The moment we were born in this world, GOD already knows all about us (PSALM 139).. even the time when we are going to ruin our lives.. So when GOD allowed us to live our life, he also give us TIME (ECCLESIASTES 3)..

so then we will be given THE CHANCESSSSSS to realize, WHAT HAVE WE DONE WITH THE FREE GIFT OF TIME? Was it successful being a doctor? Did the doctor really served GOD's gift? I am sure, GOD will never let you become a beggar, so what have you done from the gift of Time? Did you make use of your given time to be productive and not just wait for GOD to provide for you?

as i constantly seek His wisdom.. i realized when GOD gives us a GIFT of abundance LIFE, He also gives us precious TIME to serve our purpose in this LIFE, and your purpose in this life must lead to HIS GLORY.. When time and life did not serve its purpose, its His will to take it away from you..

i will serve my purpose if every moment of my life can manifest GOD's glory..
i will serve my time productively if it will be used to minister the Word of GOD..

as i said, the time he has given us are gift of chances to serve our purpose. DID YOU HEAR HIM CALLING YOU? When GOD knocks at your door, did you open it from the heart and mind? or you open it because you need something to give you pleasure and uplift your status in the society? Did you open the door faithfully that you will accept any test of faith he will give you? because he will definitely test our faith for him to know if we are ready for His JUDGEMENT.

the hurdles of life such as bitterness, hurt, failure and other storms in our lives, are strong points to help us FOCUS on our purpose in life -- a simple purpose and that is to see the wonderful works of GOD'S GLORY.. and as one of HIS FAVORITE CREATION, WE must take care of His other gifts for our own sake.. and giving back HIS GLORY is as easy as praising and worshipping HIM.. as simple as seeking his righteousness which will not even harm you or others.. so what's in it with you that you cannot surrender yourself to your own CREATOR? and ask yourself, AFTER THIS LIFE and you know you will die soon, what do you think will happen when TIME of living runs out?

how loving is our CREATOR when HE give us CHANCES to live our LIFE and ENJOY OUR TIME on His CREATION too, the WORLD we live in right now..

ahhh.. time is really precious.. please do not let it slip away just like that.. He gives it to you.. He might also take it away from you.. so be ready my friend.. but i understand, how many times i also failed to open the door for HIM.. so when i finally opened it, i never look back.. i look forward and even excited to see what other gifts he can give me.. in the FREE GIFT OF ETERNAL LIFE..



i offer each and every moment of my TIME for Him and hopefully nothing is wasted.. i strive hard to be successful using my TIME now.. because i realized i already had the time of my life, when SIN are normal everyday.. wasted time for me now is when i did sinful thoughts and actions.. so why i waste it now when i finally see the TRUTH about THE TIME of my LIFE... and the time of my life is offered to GOD who has given me all these gifts even the gift of my PAST because ALL THOSE TIME AS SINFUL AS I WAS, GOD WAS WITH ME ALL ALONG.. Until HE FINALLY KNOCKED LIKE HE NEVER KNOCK MY DOOR BEFORE.. (now thats not a wasted time)

i rely now on GOD'S PERFECT TIMING and i know its all for my own well-being.. as i offer my time on earth for GOD, i will make use of HIS TIME faithfully..

USE YOUR TIME WISELY BY SERVING YOUR PURPOSE IN THIS WORLD.

Revelation 21:3-7 And I heard a great voice out of the heaven saying, "Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men, and He will dwell with them, and they shall be His people, and God Himself shall be with them, and be their God. And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away." And He that sat upon the throne said, "Behold, I make all things new." And He said unto me, "Write: for these words are true and faithful." And He said unto me, "It is done. I am Alpha nd Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that thirsts of the fountain of the water of life freely. He that overcomes shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be My son."

Because I asked the Lord for SAMUEL

one "quiet time with GOD", he led me to the book of 1 SAMUEL. whenever I have been privileged to have an "appointment" with Father GOD, i always ask what he wants me to understand from reading the Holy Scriptures.. or humbly ask Him for an answer to one of my prayer request.. thats how you get to have a close-encounter with GOD that it wouldnt even frighten you when he answer you back but the amazing thought of His Holy Spirit is within your grasp.. is just illuminating.. it just uplift my ignorance of His Glory.. it even brings me back to the TIME when it happened... truly amazing gift from GOD..

So I asked him to bring enlightenment for my prayer request of having another CHILD.. For me and my husband, this is one blessing that will add up to our life however I honor GOD's plan for our marriage so I tend to feel a little bit hesitant to ask FATHER GOD about this.. Anyway, GOD ANSWERED.. oh well he answered from revealing to me the book of SAMUEL.. I started reading SAMUEL after Ive read Ruth and learning Ruth's tremendously love for her husband by showing faithfulness and care for her mother-in-law.. so at that instance, I praised GOD aloud for revealing me the courage of RUTH which I tend to accomplish for my husband.. even if my mother in law is in GOD's care, I realized I will also meet her someday..

so I moved on reading and turned the pages the book next to RUTH which is SAMUEL, i promise to you that it was only on that night I learned about SAMUEL... Hannah's powerful prayer of asking the LORD to have a child with his husband was one of the highlights of my quiet time.. (I REALIZED THAT I WAS HANNAH).. and prayer answered indeed by giving her, SAMUEL, which means "because I asked the Lord for him" (1Samuel 1:20).. (SAMUEL IS ONE OF THE CHOSEN PEOPLE OF GOD THAT HAS NEVER FAILED TO PLEASE HIM.. ONE OF THE MOST FAITHFUL SERVANTS OF GOD IN THE BIBLE)

soooooo i believe.. amazingly i believe that my prayer too is answered.. I CLAIM the prayer has been answered... oh it was such a joy inside me that i couldnt understand.. if this is what GOD wants me to understand at that precious time with HIM then I CLAIM IT.. oh how i thank HIM for blessing me with such joy i thought will NEVER EVER happen to me..

My good-hearted blessing from GOD, ROB, my husband, always telling me that we are going to have a boy.. if I ask him how he knew, he would just say HE JUST KNEW..

Hannah has kept her promise to pursue SAMUEL as a faithful servant of GOD so she brought Samuel to the HOUSE OF ELI.. Eli was the priest in Israel that time however he was punished for he has not much committed to serve the LORD.. Eli disobedience has displeased the LORD and so FATHER GOD has chosen SAMUEL to be the next most important priest of ISRAEL that time.. see how amazingly my "SON" is going to become.. later on the loving story of SAMUEL would mention that he was the one who annointed King Saul and King David... David the descendant of Jesus Christ.. How gifted Samuel has become?

who wouldnt want your child to be a loving n faithful servant of FATHER GOD.. I will definitely do the same promise of HANNAH.. isnt it extra-AMAZING.. I humbly ask GOD's hand on this.. it gives me an overflowing joy if my son will become the same as Samuel.

so I thought:

Father God, i praise you for this revelation. I claim that your answer to my prayer of having another child will prove that truly you are GOD of all-knowing. I surrender my worries if I will have another child or not. I honor your promise to make me a better person and whatever you give me, I believe that it is for my BEST.. As Hannah did it, I can deliver my child to you and he will be another faithful servant in our family. Father God, YOU HAVE NEVER FAILED TO AMAZE ME.. that is why I continue to strive harder and become pure in thoughts and loving in words, in order to prove to you that whatever blessings you will give me, will only manifest that i truly deserve such gift. Forgive me father if i show anything that displeases you. The quiet time with you, FATHER GOD has truly changed my thoughts, changed my hope.. and everyday of seeking for your GLORY, it has continue to amaze me with different learnings.. different wisdom.. but all leads to your POWERFUL GLORY AND LOVING MERCY.. THANK YOU lord.. I pray and humbly asked this through the MOST PRECIOUS NAME OF JESUS CHRIST.. AMEN..

In the meantime, I wait for your coming my child and for the fulfillment of GOD's hand on this.. ALL GLORY TO GOD..

1 Samuel 2

(part of) Hannah's Prayer

1 Then Hannah prayed and said:
"My heart rejoices in the LORD;
in the LORD my horn [a] is lifted high.
My mouth boasts over my enemies,
for I delight in your deliverance.
2 "There is no one holy [b] like the LORD;
there is no one besides you;
there is no Rock like our God.

GOD's hand on Aquino and the people of the Philippines

Today marks another historical event of my homeland and the beautiful, PHILIPPINES. I cry out with a simple prayer for the 15TH President of the Philippines, President-elect Benigno Aquino III or noy noy..

Father God, as we honor your presence for the proclamation of our newly-elected President Noynoy Aquino, we humbly ask for you to bless him with love, integrity, wisdom, courage, faithfulness and humility. Our country has already been hurt several times and has been taken advantage with a lot of traditional politicians and corrupted officials. My fellow countrymen should now be given the chance to regain its glory for we have seen a lot of curses of poverty: prostitution, unemployment, family dysfunction, murder, skimming or stealing, and the likes. Father God, have mercy on my country... Have mercy to my fellow filipinos who inspite of working hard has never been the chance to uplift their daily lives.. I humbly cry out for your mercy lord to put your hand on our President-elect Noynoy as we start to renew our hope and spirit for the transformation of our country. Transformation to change and lift up the curses of evilness in our government, curses of poverty, curses of timidity to fellow filipinos who just lost hope to do what is right... With your powerful grace and merciful heart, i humbly ask you to remove this curses and let us renew the spirit of my fellow filipinos so we can have a better country for the next generation. With all your strength and power Father God, we are in no comparison to you so we would like to honor your loving presence in our dying country.. Just like what you did to your promise to the Israelites when you saved them from the Egyptians, we have seen your power Father God and you have hardened the heart of the Pharaoh so your chosen people can glorify you Lord.. Me and my fellow filipinos, Father God, have seen the pain of our fellow countrymen and have seen your power and glory that without YOU, our country will never experience change from our newly elected President. Thats why on behalf of my countrymen, as we are all tired of the promises of the politicians, may YOUR HAND touch their hearts and make them FEAR YOUR POWER AND STRENGTH to lead them into righteousness. For me and all the filipinos around the world, Have mercy on us to allow our hearts be filled with your Holy Spirit in order regain our spirit and hope for a better country through your Glory and power. that you will reveal to us the virtue of humility to follow our authority and lead us not to sinful desires that will lead our country again to shame... We humbly ask this through the mighty name of Jesus Christ.. Amen..

If most of the filipinos has lost its hope that our country will still transform and renew our glory, i humbly ask GOD's presence and in my heart, i know GOD WILL MAKE A WAY for my country... any possibility still exist with HIS POWER..

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

it all start from a little faith..

ive been privileged to hear some testimonials of my friends few days ago. testimonies that are questioning GOD's answer to their prayers.. feeling a little bit of bitterness in their hearts so when you speak about the word of GOD on them, it doesn't seem to matter.. guess there were so much pain in their hearts, that their hearts even doesnt not beat normally to the virtues of GOD..

i talked to GOD.. Father God, would i have the same thoughts if i will encounter the same.. please lend me the wisdom to understand the presence of pain in their hearts because i do not want my friends to see so much darkness that they will miss out the beauty of your power and glory.. i offer my life to be an instrument of your glory in order to show to my loved ones how greatful it is to be in your care.. that nothing matters when you believe and trust in his grace that HE perfectly knows WHY OH WHY we are in deep pain... :-( my heart bleeds too when i hear my family or best friends question their faith on you

i am in deep awe of my glory to GOD, but how far can this FAITH lead me.. in my daily life, i encounter everyday hurts and pain too.. just like last saturday, my neighbor blocked my drive way and i was so late in my appointment.. i was furious but then i realized i was healing with my aggressiveness to people so i started to CRY.. I CRIED because i was asking GOD to heal my heart with everyday hurt that i might encounter.. but then i realized it was not GOD who made me weary.. it was me all along.. just when i realized that, i did not dwell enough on that thought and finally turn it into a positive feeling.. turning my hurt into GOD'S little way of test if i am really ready to get healed..

i realized that in the process of looking into my friend's hurts and pains, i am also learning to develop my faith to the LORD.. more faith is what i need, when i see them crushing their faith into the wall of this sinful earth.. im in deep hurt because of that.. but after realizing that, FAITH MADE ME BREATH.. t

the same faith that made me believe thaat even pain is a blessing from GOD..
the same faith that the horrible sins of my past, present and even in the future, are all forgiven..
the same faith that lingered in my veins that every little thing in this world, i humbly ask His guidance and presence..

i was asked how i did that?? I just believe..you might say its just a POWER OF THE MIND.. but yes.. thats what my heart and mind says.. and that makes FAITH so different from the rest of GOD's gift to me.. its just like the wind, you cannot see it and yet you can feel and know where it leads you..

so from the everyday worries, hurt and pain i see in my life and in my friend's lives OR simply, the REALITIES OF THIS WORLD.... up to where my faith will lead me?? i dont know how far.. coz i know in my heart and mind, i couldn't just stop where i am right now... not now.. and not ever after.. i couldn't stop believing on this FAITH because my friends also needs me.. how much more pain can they bear if they could not even hear GOD's word through me.. not me actually, but through the Holy Spirit, GOD's word is coming out through me..

i am made (ready and willing) to believe that..

i believe my FAITH CAN LEAD ME WHERE HIS MERCY AND GRACE WILL FLOURISH..
i believe my FAITH CAN LEAD ME UNTIL MY PURPOSE ENDS..
i believe my FAITH CAN LEAD ME UNTIL I SURRENDER MY SHAME AND FEAR..

and until my life will drop down to the least expected, and where pain and hurt are just unbearable..

i believe my FAITH CAN LEAD ME BACK TO HIS GLORY, WORSHIP HIM, AND BELIEVING THAT MY SEED OF FAITH WILL SOON BE HARVESTED IN MY ETERNAL LIFE, THROUGH THE MOST PRECIOUS AND MERCIFUL NAME OF JESUS CHRIST..

I LOVE YOU LORD JESUS.. how much more can you give pain to me and my friends, i acknoweldge the same blessings of happiness and success you have given us.. THANK YOU LORD for the revelation of TRUE FAITH..

7We live by faith, not by sight.
2 Corinthians 5:7 (New International Version)

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV)

I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.
Matthew 17:20 (NIV)

finally meeting with MOTHER D

i never knew her name.. or perhaps my friend told me but as always, ive forgotten.. i was supposed to meet her when my friend was in manila last APRIL 2010, but probably there were other plans... Plans that GOD might have other plans for me and mother D where and when we should meet..

mother D died last week..

my condolences to my friend and her family.. i remember a few attributes of mother dionaldo through my friend's small anecdotes about her.. she is a loving, patient, forgiving, not so much of a good cook coz it was her dad who always does the cooking in their house, but as far as I can recall her description of mother dionaldo.. there are only three (3) attributes: she is a perfect mother, faithful wife and a devout christian, a servant of JESUS CHRIST.

Mother D lived in years of pain.. literal pain as she had undergone a massive "very painful" therapy.. sorry i couldnt mention any more details about it as my friend has always been a very private person.. but i just couldnt ignore the fact that after all the pain through the years,

MY FRIEND'S MOTHER NEVER LOST HER FAITH TO JESUS CHRIST.. that INSPITE OF THE PAIN THAT LINGERED IN HER VEINS, SHE COULD HAVE CURSE GOD FOR GIVING HER SO MUCH PAIN THAT ONLY A NUMB STUPID PERSON CAN BEAR, but MOTHER D NEVER LOST HER SANITY.. NEVER FELT BITTER or RESENTMENT ABOUT HER SITUATION.. ONLY SHE BREATHES BECAUSE SHE KNEW GOD ALLOWED HER.. SHE KNEW THAT GOD LOVES HER THAT SHE NEEDS TO ENDURE THE "GROWING PAINS" ON THIS EARTH AND FULFILL HER PURPOSE TO LIVE... UNTIL SHE KNEW SHE HAVE SERVED HER PURPOSE ON THIS SINFUL EARTH..

and as always, GOD's perfect timing reigns.

i knew it in my heart that MOther D knew how it would be when you experienced physical death and no matter how you would want her to get cured, i would still prefer a physical death where you will not experience the curse of living on this sinful world.. YES, I ENVY THE PEOPLE WHO ARE BELIEVERS OF CHRIST AND DIED because they only wait before the judgement and will not witness the sadness of this sinful earth.. As i normally ask GOD TO TAKE ALL OF ME, FATHER GOD.. i am worth of your love and patience.. as i strive hard to endure pain on this earth, i am willing to surrender my pain and hurts to you.. who am i to grumble? i dont think i will even reached to a point where i can have another spiritual death (separation of GOD and man when we sin).. i know the rules now.. it wont happen ever again.. after experiencing the inner joy and peace i am into now, nuh-uh.. not going to screw this up again..

mother D will always be in my heart and remember her as someone who i am supposed to meet... yes, i will strive hard to believe that we will meet soon.. we will finally meet not here.. not in libertad.. not even in dubai.. but where GOD promised us to be.. where we supposed to meet our LORD JESUS CHRIST.. AND as I follow CHRIST.. not JUST FOLLOW HIM.. BUT A FAITH IN ACTION.. I know how to stay away from recurrent sins.. this is my duty... this is my purpose.. MOTHER D has served her purpose and kudos to that..

I will prove that i am worthy of eternity.. i am worthy to meet MOTHER D and finally have coffee with her or she can finally cook for me KARE KARE or anything i want...

see you soon mother D.. =)


2 Corinthians 5:8
Yes, we are fully confident, and we would rather be away from these earthly bodies, for then we will be at home with the Lord.

Philippians 1:22-23
But if I live, I can do more fruitful work for Christ. So I really don’t know which is better. I’m torn between two desires: I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far better for me.

John 14:1-3
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am."

HEART where my courage is... what is it bout my heart that GOD wants?

HEART where my Courage is..

In order to see God’s blessing in your life, you must be willing to join God’s team and remain alert to right and wrong. We are in a spiritual battle. This is real. It's not a game. The decisions you make today affect the rest of your life and your witness for Christ.

Have you ever asked yourself:

What is it about my heart that God wants?
Why does God love me?

Your heart is the place of compassion. It’s the center or core of who you are. Your heart is your spirit. It’s your place of courage and determination. Your heart is your focal point or driving factor in all you do.

God desires that each of us will have a heart after him. That’s why He places a wellspring of life within our spirits when we accept him. You may’ve suffered with boredom and lack of inspiration in the past. But the spring of the Lord within your heart is a plentiful source of water. It’s an ample supply that never runs dry. Every day that you live for Jesus, He causes your heart to swell with increase and abundant life.

At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life. (Titus 3:3-7, NIV)

As you make the courageous choice to turn away from sin and sanctify yourself to the Lord, you will find eternal life. II Peter 1:3 says God's power in your life is everything [insert your name] needs for life and godliness.

ALL THIS GLORY IS ONLY FOR GOD..

NO FEAR is greater than MY FEAR OF GOD

can there be more fearful than fear of GOD? today, after i realized the repercussions of my wrong doings before i became a devoted christian.. i need to repay for the irresponsibilities ive done before, then theres this fear inside me.. i sighed.. felt ashamed and then i felt fear from the consequences of my irresponsibilities before.. i completely forgotten that the law of MAN still will haunt you to repay what uve done.. fear came all over me...

but then i realized my FEAR of GOD is far best from my fear of my PAST' consequences... of course i need to face the consequences and pay retribution to this.. but why would i fear to solve this issue.. no fear at all not bec im with JESUS now and he will help me on this.. but becoz my fear should be the fear of GOD's judgement on this. I have asked forgiveness through Jesus Christ and i have faith that i was forgiven too.. but then because of the repercussion of the wrong doings i did, i need to face the irresponsibility of my sins on this earth.. from the law of man, i need to repay.. however the law of GOD, I believe that i have been forgiven from this sin, my fear of GOD is now more evident and i promised of not doing the same mistake again..

GOD's HOLY hand is on me again.. and my gratitude to your undying love to me, FATHER GOD.. YOU ARE HOLY AND YOUR PERFECT WISDOM NEVER FAILS.. following the law of GOD will never fail you to be just, honest, fearful of committing sin.. most importantly, it will lead u to have a straight life to follow the law of man.. i sighed again.. i should have been careful before and have followed JESUS' WAY.. i know its never too late.. coz i promised myself and to JESUS, that it will never happen again..

REALIZATION is that i cannot do anything on what i did before, though i need to face the consequences... the only thing i can focus on now is my FUTURE and my fear of the Lord which will lead me to a righteous life.. the life He always want me to have.. the duty and purpose of being here on this earth.. THANK YOU FATHER GOD FOR YOUR LOVE FOR ME AS YOU HAVE GIVEN ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO PROVE THAT I AM WORTHY. MY LOVING GRATITUDE AS ALWAYS.. thats why it gives me the motivation to know GOD more by reading the BIBLE and willing to let him Transform my life.. surrendering what is left of me so I can change my old ways.. old sins.. old hang-ups..

as long as my fear of GOD is there, i will never do the same mistake again.. i fear on what HE can do to me (PUT ME IN HELL and experience the BURNING SULFUR LAKE OF FIRE).. i fear on what judgement he can give me (I WILL NEVER KNOW THE REWARDS IN ETERNITY).. this is the most important revelation in my life now so I FEAR GOD ABOVE ELSE ON THIS EARTH.. when i said that, i feel im finally FREE FROM FEAR OF ANYTHING.. woooohoooo.. what a relief!!

Leviticus 25:17 Do not take advantage of each other, but fear your God. I am the LORD your God. 18 "`Follow my decrees and be careful to obey my laws, and you will live safely in the land.

Deuteronomy 6:2 so that you, your children and their children after them may fear the LORD your God as long as you live by keeping all his decrees and commands that I give you, and so that you may enjoy long life.

1 Samuel 23:24 But be sure to fear the LORD and serve him faithfully with all your heart; consider what great things he has done for you. 25 Yet if you persist in doing evil, both you and your king will be swept away."

Psalms 103:11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him;

Psalms 111:10 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow his precepts have good understanding. To him belongs eternal praise. 112:1 Praise the LORD. Blessed is the man who fears the LORD, who finds great delight in his commands.

Psalms 128:128:1 Blessed are all who fear the LORD, who walk in his ways.

Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline.

Proverbs 3:7 Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD and shun evil.

Proverbs 9:10 "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.

Luke 12:4 "I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do no more. 5 But I will show you whom you should fear : Fear him who, after the killing of the body, has power to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him.

Luke 23:40 But the other criminal rebuked him. "Don't you fear God," he said, "since you are under the same sentence?

Psalms27:1 The LORD is my light and my salvation-- whom shall I fear ? The LORD is the stronghold of my life-- of whom shall I be afraid?

2 Corinthians 9:10 For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad. 11 Since, then, we know what it is to fear the Lord, we try to persuade men. What we are is plain to God, and I hope it is also plain to your conscience.

Proverbs 29:25 Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD is kept safe.

1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear , because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

Revelations 14:7 He said in a loud voice, " Fear God and give him glory, because the hour of his judgment has come. Worship him who made the heavens, the earth, the sea and the springs of water."