Thursday, July 22, 2010

my fears






Sun may never rise
Moon may not even shine
Darkness couldn't hope for a little spotlight
And Loved one could not even kiss u goodbye..

Isn't it a wonder
Why am i still alive?
Still taking little courage
your own weapon as day passes by

Even if grand moments makes the difference
Still u wonder what's next after this
Life seems to get vulnerable
Yet u just can't quit even if you're tired
from claiming the beauty of life

Fear in life is what I got used to
Coz simply, life will keep me going
N when life is there, fear's haunting
Coz u can't have all the pieces together,
There will always be a part of the puzzle that won't fit.

(Sigh) However i just cldnt surrender what life can bring
just cldnt stop the thought of fear
It resides in one part of my heart
Where u will see all the fight I've been to

Imagine more than half of my fight
Is full of fear
Fear to lose
Fear to survive the battle of life

Wonder why I'm still in this fight
When it seems like im in the
Verge of surrendering..
to end life so i can end my fears..

when surrendering becomes the only
choice, a SAVIOUR will never fail to cease you.
will never fail to enlighten
will never fail to exist

Yes! the love of my creator
The one who has given me the free will
To be courageous n even fearful
The one who has all the reason of letting
Me feel the bitter sweet of life





Fear of the lord..
the kind of fear
That haunts you with love n devotion
Life w fear yet for your salvation

Fear that breaks you free
From worries what life can bring
Fear we used to ignore
it simply weakens our hearts

Still, life and fear goes hand in hand
But it becomes the fear that let me live
w happiness in my heart

Its purpose is noble n just for my weakened heart
So What could be more fearful on this life on earth,
When you know you have been given the chance to
fear for the lord!
Honoring his mighty words for the continuance of life

Now my fears will conquer
Conquer my love for the lord
in this fight I may fear at times
But ur sovereign power will hear my cry

A secret which everyone ignores
But I will rise up
Now i can surrender, surrender in His words.
never be fearful from fears of life alone
My love of God will bring forth my fear to him



No more I feel alone in the battle u may give me
A call to persevere.. to win
Because of my love,
Because of my fear not to see u.. not to even feel u.

Alleluia! Great is our God
My love in life and fears will work on to fulfill my faith to reunite with you
To feel u n finally surrender to the promise of an everlasting life w u!

Glory to God in the highest!

Thank u jesus!!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

not a creator of my life


It took 3 weeks for me to write on my blog again. Since my
Husband arrived in manila, we've been busy in our 2nd honeymoon
In boracay, aklan and seeing friends n loved ones. Then finally,
A week ago, we have arrived here in gloucester, england..

Its been a humbling experience and giving back the glory to. God
is just not enough for me to say thank you.

Exactly a year ago, I never imagined this kind of life I have right
now. I was broken, darkened fr all the Hurts n pains.. I was questioning His love.
Then I realized I was staring to a crucifix and
Asked him, " I see now, so its all up to u!",
So I thought I need to live it all to Him..
But honestly, until that confrontation w jesus, it took me
Me sometime to realize the he was really workin in my life then
Coz I was still Stubborn n feeling I could drive my own life..

Up to that moment, I just let him rule my life..


Then here I am now, still struggling to live but a big leap of faith
has given me strength to any pain n hurt that life on earth can offer..
I'm not the creator of my life! Never I was.. Never will be..
A more powerful creator has given me enough courage to feel this..
Its everything I want. God to rule my life..

W a husband now, a simple life and a faithful God I don't think I can
Beat any achievement I've ever had in my life..
As I've experience moments of success in my life, there's no other material things
or success in career can equal that..
And by his loving grace n mercy, my samuel will arrive soon.

All glory to God alone!