callings and leadings

John 6:44 (New International Version)
44"No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him, and I will raise him up at the last day.

The warrior is a child

i was reminded of this song after i finished the previous blog..

thank you JESUS.. im so in love with you.. thank you for bringing out the best in me.. The very best of praising you.. and serving you for your GLORY..

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
Unafraid because His armor is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies

That lay me at His feet
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
And they don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
Deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child

let GOD speak to you

It's an honour to be able to speak to GOD. We dont have to go through a priest or a saint, or any other intermediary. We dont have to follow any prescribed rituals. We dont have to wait for an appointment. Anywhere, any time, under any circumstances, e can 'approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need' HEBREWS 4: 16

a praying WARRIOR in me

Jesus said, 'I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt... you can say to this mountain, "Go,throw yourself into the sea," and it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.' (Matthew 21:21-22)

Everything, or all you can see and touch comes from GOD.. and what do you think about the one's you cannot feel and see...?? It also comes from GOD but in here, it is called sincere FAITH..

I strongly believe that our prayers will be answered by GOD. Our prayers are more than wishes, hopes, or feeble aspirations - but only if we pray with believing, faith-filled hearts. That is the kind of prayer that moves mountains.

I started to study the POWER OF PRAYERS by focusing on my 3 objectives:

1. to strengthen my faith in JESUS and his ways.

because it is only THROUGH JESUS that my FAITH yields. the FAITH that has transformed my life upside down and did wonders to my being. I could now understand the meaning of Jesus who lived on earth to show how it is his gracious love for us that he has sacrificed his life and died on the CROSS so that the assurance of FORGIVENESS shall be given to us in order to live an everlasting life with HIM..

I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith int he Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. - Galatians 2:20

For as the Father has life in Himself, so He has granted the Son to have life in Himself, and has given Him authority to execute judgment also, because He is the Son of Man John 5:26,27

And Jesus came and spoke to them, saying, "All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth...." Matthew Matthew 28:18

Just like the Apostle Paul who has written in Galatians his desire to know more about JESUS so he will be equipped and capable to understand GOD's message on him.. At that time, when GOD called PAUL to spread the word of GOD, who is in fact a persecutor of CHRISTIANS, has not witness all the miracles of JESUS and his crucifixion on the cross. He has written in Galatians that he even went to ARABIA then jerusalem to meet up PETER and ended up meeting James instead, brother of Jesus, in order for him to learn more about JESUS. Not that he doesnt have faith, but he needs to understand the meaning of all GOD's calling so his faith will become even stronger.

This is an indication why me, as a young christian, would seek the TRUTH and learn it the way GOD wanted me to understand a FATHER. the BIBLE has given me so much thoughts that I am always eager to know, by GOD's grace, slowly Jesus has revealed himself to me.


2. to understand where the leading of the HOLY SPIRIT or to interpret GOD's leading or answers with my prayer.

As we know prayer is our means of communicating with GOD, this is a form of worship for me and the atmosphere will invite GOD's presence.. Just like you would like to speak physically to a normal person, you would like to invite his presence so you could have a great conversation with that person.

Of course, the most motivating factor in praying is ANSWERED PRAYERS. What drives me to my knees, and makes me want to pray more? its definitely ANSWERED PRAYERS. But then how do we know if this is an ANSWERED prayer.. what about the answers that are not directly answered like when you asked for a HOUSE and yet you know it was answered? If you are a christian probably you will understand the last statement. It is because as a christian, we are baptized by the HOLY SPIRIT.. and the HOLY SPIRIT leads us to GOD's glory which nobody can understand... (even the Pharisees as Jesus said in LUKE 7 couldnt understand his ways because they were not baptized by JOHN the baptist with the holy spirit)


the HOLY SPIRIT LEADING. The book of Pastor Bill also mentioned why is it important to be interested in the HOly Spirit's leadings in our lives? First, our eternal destiny is determinedy by how we respons to the leadings from GOD.

3. to understand unanswered prayers and the possible hindrances why GOD has not answered.

I borrowed this outline from the book of Pastor Bill once more coz I believe this is a good approach to understand your prayer request.. not prayer but our prayer request.

IF THE REQUEST IS WRONG, GOD SAYS ' NO'
IF THE TIMING IS WRONG, GOD SAYS ' SLOW DOWN'
IF YOU ARE WRONG, GOT SAYS, ' GROW'
BUT IF THE REQUEST IS RIGHT, THE TIMING IS RIGHT, AND YOU ARE RIGHT, GOD SAYS, ' GO!'

If I pray that GOD will give me a HOUSE in manila and yet, until this moment, I couldnt feel anything possibility of having that request granted. It

PRAY LIKE A MATURED CHILD

Prayer for me is a form of worship where I can pour my heart out to GOD with anything at the top of my mind.. Listed below the manner I used to pray and you might have done something similar:

* I used to pray LIKE A CHILD who havent started yet but i want to finish my prayer.. it was always very short.
* Prayer goes from one topic to another, which means my thoughts were disorganized.
* I used to pray before I sleep, or should I SAY, I used to pray when Im so nearly asleep, and yes, most of the time, I fell asleep while praying.
* I always forgot to pray
* I just thank GOD and pray for a loved ones I remember at that time..
* I dont call on to JESUS..

Until GOD slowly transformed me into where I am right now, and by HIS grace, I get the chance to read this book of Pastor BILL, "TOO BUSY NOT TO PRAY, Slowing down to be with GOD" which I've borrowed from a friend, and actually she's a pastoral assistant in our church, named NAOMI.

I've felt that the HOLY SPIRIT has started to ask me to learn the PROPER WAY OF PRAYING. But please do not get me wrong.. saying HELLO LORD and your thoughts to let Him guide you, maybe a form of PRAYER for you.. However as my walk with Jesus gets to be more intimate, I would want to speak to HIM better in a manner that I can get closer with HIM.. its my own choice on that bits..

When somebody was just introduced to you and he happens to be a very interesting person, you would want to know more about him through a better conversation with HIM right? Ask questions which are appropriate for you to get closer to that person. Until he reciprocates and would want you to get closer to HIM too.. and what if this somebody happens to be GOD.. would you want to say NO.. so I chose YES and HE reciprocated His DESIRE to know me too.. and it is through PRAYER that I get to invite HIM with an atmosphere that claim His presence.

SO this is what I've learned from the BOOK which might be helpful with your journey with the LORD or PERHAPS you already know about this, then I supposed you have truly made a great relationship with GOD.. it must have been an amazing life for you to be able to communicate with our LORD?!

Developing prayer fitness is like developing physical fitness: we need a pattern to avoid becoming imbalanced. Without a routine, we will probably fall into the 'PLEASE GOD' trap: 'Please GOD arrange this', 'Please GOD protect.' If I sound sarcatic, its because I know all about imbalanced prayer - Im a real pro in that department. And I can tell you from personal expereince where imbalanced prayer leads. Sensing the carelessness and one-sidedness of prayers, we begin to feel guilty about praying. Guilt leads to faintheartedness, and that in turn leads to prayerlessness.. When praying makes us feel guilty, we soon stop praying.

If that has happened to you, its high time to set up a prayer routine. It has been used for many years in Christian circles. Its balanced, and its easy to use. All you have to remember is the word ACTS, whose four letters stand for adoration, confession, thanksgiving, and supplication.

PATTER of PRAYER:

1. ADORATION. Adoration sets the tone for the entire prayer. It reminds us whom we are addressing, whose presence we have entered, whose attention we have gained. How often our problems and trials and needs seem so pressing that we reduce prayer to a wish list! But when we commit ourselves to beginning all our prayers with adoration, we have to slow down and focus our attenton ON GOD.

Adoration purifies the one who is praying. When we have spent a few minutes praise GOD for who he s, our spirit is softened and our agenda changes. Those burning issues we were dying to bring to GOD's attention may seem less crucial. Our sense of desperation subsides as we focus on God's greatness, and we can truly say, 'I am enjoying you, God; it is well with my soul.' Adoration purges our spirit and prepares us to listen to GOD.

And GOD is worthy of adoration. 1John 3:1 How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of GOD.

How to adore GOD... What better way than to list his attributes? Sometimes I think of every attribute I can. Other times I focus on one I have been especially aware of in recent days. When facing major decisions, I may concentrate on his guidance. When suffering from a felling of inadequacy or guilt, I may praise him for his mercy. When in need, I may worship him for his providence or power.

2. CONFESSION: naming our faults.

I've prayed well enough to praise him and guide me through my issues in life but never I have confessed my sins directly to him. I am guilty of sinning everyday and yet I neglect this part.

Confession is probably the most neglected area in personal prayer today. We often her people pray publicly, 'Lord, forgive us all our sins.' A lot of us carry that approach into our private prayer. We throw all our sins on to a pile without so much as looking at them, and we say,'GOD, please cover the whole dirty heap.'

I determined that in my prayers, I would deal with sin specifically. I would say, 'I told so and so I didnt when in fact, I did.' Or instead of admitting I had been less than the best wife I would say, 'Today I wilfully determined to be self-centered, uncaring and insensitive. Im not going to understand him tonight because I have my feelings too and I dont care anymore if I am going to hurt him or not.. @

As well as you are specific on your WISH LIST.. be specific on your SIN LIST.. so you will also learn from it and may not do it again.. But of course, the prayer teaches us that the GOOD news JESUS died for your sins can give you an assurance of forgiveness from JESUS but pray that you will be free from sinning.. What is the benefit of confession?

First, your conscience will be cleansed. 'i finally said it,' and you will think, 'im finally getting honest with GOD. Im not playing games any mro and it feels good.' Next, you will be flooded with relief that GOD has a forgiving nature. You will begin to learn the meaning of peace.

Also you will be free to PRAY that with the power of the HOLY SPIRIT, you can make a commitment to give up the sin and to live for GOD.. And that's when your life begins to show signs of change.

When you're totally honest with you sins, then some radical changes in your life will happen. As God goes to work on your sins, you begin to see Paul's words being fulfilled in your life; 'If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!' (2 CORINTHIANS 5:17)

3. THANKSGIVING: Expressing Gratitude

I thank GOD every day for four kinds of blessings: answered prayers, spiritual blessings, relational blessings and material blessings. Amost everything in my life fits into one of those categories. By the time I've gone through each category, I'm ready to go back to adoration for all GOD has done to me.

Luke 17:11-19, the story of ten men whom Jesus healed from leprosy. ONLY ONE MAN comes back to JESUS and thank HIM.. the others went to do it their way.

4. SUPPLICATION: Asking for HELP

The part where most of us would like to jump into.. the REQUEST.. Philippians 4:6 says, 'in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to GOD.' If you have adored him, confessed your sins and thanked him for all his good gifts, you're ready to tell him what you need.

Again, SPECIFIC request are important. Nothing is too big for GOD to handle or too small for him to be interested in. Still, I sometimes wonder if my requests are legitimate. So Im honest with GOD. I say,'Lord, I dont know if I have the right to ask for this. Idont know how I should pray about it. but I lift it to you, and if you tell me how to pray, I'll pray your way.'

GOD honours that kind of prayer, James say, 'If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask GOD, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him' JAMES 1:5.

Break up your request into whatever categories suit your purposes, and then keep a list of what you've prayed about. After about three weeks, go back and reread your list. Find out what GOD has already done. In many cases, you will be amazed.

From this book, I learned how to ask GOD about supplication. When I am so geared up to ask GOD to bless me with a child, after reading this book, I can now pray, 'Lord, I pray you guide us for the preparation of your gift of a child.. Prepare our thoughts and heart for a wonderful gift from you that will also show how my husband and i love one another.. however If the time isnt right yet, if Im not ready to receive it yet, no problem. Your ways are higher than my ways, and your thoughts than my thoughts. If you have different plan, we'll go your way. Teach us to understand your way.'


When I pray, I'm not just telling GOD my problems. I'm turning my biggest concerns over to him. Once I've put them in his capable hands, I can go about my day in strength, free from crushing concerns.

WELL DONE! Let us experiment iwth the ACTS routine. Adapt the categories to fit your situation, but be sure to include each category each time you pray. Experience the blessings of balance.

AND SEE WHAT GOD DOES IN YOUR LIFE..




NOW I AM STILL PRAYING LIKE A CHILD BECAUSE I PRAY TO OUR FATHER.. A FATHER WHO NEVER BLAMES AND TAKES YOUR REQUEST FOR GRANTED.. I WILL ALWAYS BE A CHILD OF GOD.

NOW I CAN SAY IM PRAYING LIKE A MATURED CHILD.. READY TO SPEAK, READY TO LISTEN, READY TO LOVE, READY TO SURRENDER BUT ALWAYS ALWAYS CRY OUT TO MY FATHER AND ASK FOR HIS TENDER HUG..

BECAUSE I'M STILL A CHILD WHO WILL ALWAYS NEED A FATHER WHO UNCONDTIONAL LOVES.. A FATHER WHO HOLDS MY HAND TO GUIDE ME ON MY JOURNEY.

TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!!

Hillsong None but Jesus - music video

In the quiet
In the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call i won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos in confusion
I know You're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won't delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope
All of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord
Forever more

JESUS' rebuttals to SIN.. LESSONs learned from LUKE 4 (part 2)

JESUS continues to grow inside me and as I embraced him, I could feel his compassion on me because of my desire to love him even more. I realized the message he has made me understand in Luke 4 are overwhelming that I have decided to put it into writing in my blog. It was all coming in my head that I need to write it down so I will seriously read it back again. Through the HOLY SPIRIT, since I’ve started this blog this morning, it helped me to put all the right words to share with you.

I also realized the 3 LESSONs were not just meant for me, but for all the believers or non-believers who are in the look out of the ENEMY’s bite any minute.. a world that is full of TEMPTATIONS from head to foot can get you anytime, anywhere and even JESUS, SON OF GOD, was not excluded from this. Therefore the message is perfectly clear for me.. Remember these are all taken from my own belief and experienced. My own words and line of thoughts.. so hoping by the loving grace of GOD, it will also strengthen your faith.


FOCUS is the key... because I learned HUMAN always tend to lose their FOCUS once TEMPTATION is in placed.. so FOCUS has become a FAVORITE and POWERFUL TOOL for me..


3 LESSONS I’ve learned from JESUS in LUKE 4.


1. FOCUS on MY PURPOSE in life.. (verse 4 lesson )

Our purpose is as vital as our life, especially for CHRISTIAN.. It is easy to live the life that you have right now, whethere you are focus on a life full of miseries or on a life that what you think is good for you.. but your purpose is hard to imagine because it is GOD's purpose on you.. its his DREAM for you that's why He made you.. If you fall on the trap of the enemy, You do not only fail yourself but you also fail GOD...

From the verse 4 that Jesus answered to Satan, we must live a life that is FOCUSED on our PURPOSE so as not to get tempted to WORLDLY and all temporary. We should not be deceived by the works of pure evil that would lead us to PHYSICAL and SPIRITUAL DEATH..

What is our purpose by the way? I was brought in this life not just by accident.. I have a purpose to fulfill for my FATHER GOD, just like when Jesus was brought on Earth (John 3:16).. YOU AND MY PURPOSE is to continue living for the honor and glory of GOD through JESUS CHRIST, our savior from the fires of HELL and DEATH itself because it is through JESUS CHRIST, that we will experience to live in the KINGDOM OF GOD...

Isn’t that enough to motivate me to get FOCUS.. YES AND NO.. YES because I know the fulfilment of GOD’s promise will come TRUE when HE also has fulfilled the promise of the coming of a MESSIAH.. How many times JESUS was mentioned in the Old testament and the fulfilment came in the New Testament.. Now in the REVELATION, I await until the JUDGEMENT DAY and the KINGDOM OF GOD is accomplished.. then NO, because in a world that continues to breath SIN and where everyone you see are persecuting and laughing out JESUS name, I desperately would need JESUS in my heart to be strong and take courage in my decisions and choices in life.. GOD knows my vulnerability and he wants me to get EQUIPT in any THIEF that will get in the way of my purpose.. That’s when it will lead us to the second lesson which is..

2. FOCUS on the GREAT COMMISSION.

Some Christians or maybe some non-believers would seem to keep quiet about SPIRITUAL issues.. knowing that the world is full of persecutions to people who talks about religion. Some has the tendency to SHUT their door to SPREAD the word of GOD.. I believe the lesson to be learned from the VERSE 8 where in JESUS mentioned to SERVE GOD and WORSHIP HIM ALONE is that, in order to continue living in YOUR PURPOSE in this WORLD, you must learn how to have a FELLOWSHIP with your brothers and sisters…

FELLOWSHIP has played a very important role of my being a YOUNG CHRISTIAN. FELLOWSHIP has made me grow in FAITH and in SPIRIT.. It has started to equipt me with loving thoughts that I need to share with my own family, friends, and the people around me who all lives in the loving presence of GOD however it is not easy, GOD will continue to CONVICT you and SLOWLY REVEAL himself to you and amazingly, use other people’s lives to REACH YOU..

The GREAT COMMISSION is in Matthew 28:16-20 (NIV)
16Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

GOD’s glory is not there only for me… My purpose in this life shall continue to be fulfilled if I KNOW HOW TO SHARE GOD’S LOVE to my family, friends, and the people who needs GOD’s grace.

DISCIPLESHIP has been the core discipline and objective in my CHURCH (both in manila and in England). SPREADING the word of GOD and how it has transformed me has been one of the amazing journeys of my FAITH. . Also, it has allowed me to be the PERSON that GOD has prepared me. .

By FELLOWSHIP, you will SERVE GOD.. you grow with HIM by sharing to PEOPLE’s blessings.. People get touched by your spirit and You also get to be blessed by their stories.. the LOVE that GOD the Father has in mind for all His children. Constant fellowship and ministries will be the perfect armour.

This is the PERFECT ARMOUR to stop the ENEMY from pretending to be in AUTHORITY because WE WILL be focused and believing in our FAITH THROUGH JESUS CHRIST.

3. focus on your FAITH ON GOD’S GRACIOUS LOVE ON YOU.

You know your purpose, and you know how to equipt yourself to get to HIS WORDS, BUT ALL OF THESE ARE RESULTS of your FAITH.. As we always say, YOU ARE SAVED BY FAITH ALONE, because faith is not easy to understand.

YOUR FAITH is WITHIN YOU.. It is the one that continues to grow and live in you.. Verse says that Do not put your GOD into a TEST, because once you test GOD, you have probably doubted or lost faith in GOD.. But do not worry to doubt, as the Holy Spirit, continue to guide me, I learned that DOUBTING is a way for you to SEEK GOD even more.. However never lose HIS FAITH on HIM because it would be terrible to go back to the DARKNESS you’ve been before..

I have completely understood that DARKNESS NEVER EXISTED. Fact is it will only exist if you do not let LIGHT SHINE on it.. Imagine the thought that you do not even let a SINGLE LIGHT shine on you.. a LITTLE FAITH in GOD creates a big change in your life, my friend… the LITTLE FAITH I have before has started to AMAZE ME that I could not even STOP it from growing because I just love the fact of KNOWING GOD as an important aspect of my BEING..

GOD’s power is sovereign and his love for you can move mountains just to prove how He is after your best interest. Imagine GOD’s love WILL TRANSFORM YOUR LIFE the way it shall serve GOD's glory,.. Isnt it humbling that GOD shall use your life to show HIS glory? Just like HE has called on MOSES, DAVID, NOAH, JACOB, ABRAHAM.. and JESUS..

OUR little faith has done wonders right in front of your face, so do not let a single SPOT of EVIL marked your face as a beautiful creation of GOD. It may sound a little easy but I know it is extremely hard.. but DO NOT WORRY OF FAILING because that is why JESUS has come to rescue us, he will be your STRENGTH and the faith you have in HIM will reveal itself...

And then it will be revealed, I never thought I would enjoy reading the BIBLE as much as I am doing right now. GOD has blessed me with a lot of IDLE TIME (whenever my husband is at work and Ive finished all the household chores) in order to KNOW JESUS and how much I will need this understanding to be applied with my GROWING FAITH. Praise GOD.

How much more a BIG FAITH can do in your life? UNIMAGINABLE LIFE ON EARTH.. I am not sure how much BIG FAITH you need to have but one thing for sure.. YOU NEVER GET TOO MUCH FROM GOD'S AMAZING GLORY TO GET REVEALED.. HE WILL NEVER CEASE TO AMAZE YOUR FAITH.. HE GOT SO MUCH TO GIVE and I've seen matured Christian who continue to LEARN GOD's ways eventhough the true core of their belief is there, but I've heard their testimonies on how GOD still has an amazing story to show in their lives.. However you need to be careful in being too self-righteous.. once it overwhelmed you, PRAY FOR GOD to grant you HUMILITY as this might be a stronghold for SATAN to work in you.. Know JESUS as your STRENGTH, YOUR OWN REFUGE, YOUR OWN DELIVERER..

GROWING FAITH in JESUS has never been the best moment of my RELATIONSHIP with HIM.. but the fact is, it is NOT EASY to FOLLOW CHRIST.. the ENEMY is out there to destroy US the same way he tried to tempt JESUS.. He will come in different FORMS..


THAT'S WHY I KEEP PUSHING FORWARD TO LIVE MY LIFE through the help of the living HOLY SPIRIT, and the living WORD OF GOD, the BIBLE in order to guide me and support my quest to know God's will and understand GOD's POWER in my life. It has never been the same..

TO GOD BE ALL THIS GLORY.. thank you JESUS on the message you want me to understand.. It will be taken care of..

JESUS' rebuttals to SIN.. (part 1)

LUKE 4: 1 -13

I could still remember i've read this during my school days where in my teacher have asked us to read it and has given us some question as our homework, about the time JESUS was TEMPTED by SATAN.

It was never the same since I've contemplated and read this again last Saturday, September 18, 2010... and i would like to share to you why and how I believe this will start to transform me even more..

3 IMPECCABLE ANSWERS OF JESUS that has instilled in my mind and has made a powerful thought...

1. verse 4: Jesus answered, " PEOPLE DO NOT LIVE ON BREAD ALONE".

Satan on this verse, has tempted JESUS to turn the stone into bread..

and that answer has struck me about the worldly desires even up to now I am having.. The enemy is always in the look out for any sign of weaknesses for us to get involved on it, until he can trap us.. So any senseless pleasure of one's self, motivated by worldly sins and would not be suitable for my spiritual warfare, THEN its a NO NO... Unless it is a personal blessing from GOD then I would accept of course, but the VERSE HAS TAUGHT ME TO DEPEND ON GOD'S WILL AND DO NOT BE TEMPTED TO WORLDLY DESIRE.. and i believe that a simple worldly desire could manage to grow inside you.. or a simple sin like lying could manage to lead into ANGER, HATRED, RESENTMENT and all that is harmful to your BODY AND SPIRIT.. THOSE--- ARE THE WORKS OF PURE EVIL..

The BREAD there, I believe, has been used by Satan because Jesus at that time was FASTING. Therefore the BREAD would stand for any PHYSICAL NEED or PLEASURE.. or any material things that leads to pride, boasting, vanity, selfishness among other sinful things to connote in the HUMAN side of me..

As what Madonna's most favorite song title would imply, "cause we are living in a material world," AND ANYWHERE YOU PUT UR MIND INTO IS JUST TEMPTING..

JESUS has been described as PRAYERFUL that even HE is the SON OF GOD, He continues to ask GUIDANCE from GOD. So, PRAYERS, as it did wonders to me, is my BRIDGE to communicate with GOD's guidance on the RIGHT "GODLY" CHOICES i need to make in my life, especially in my marriage. Let me be able to say to SATAN that his TEMPTATIONS ARE NOT THE IMPORTANT THINGS in my LIFE.. JESUS' hand on my decisions will play a vital role on this part.

Jesus has warned us to be strong and take courage, because the ENEMY of life who will continue to tempt us (like a thief of the night) with our weaknesses and will trap us in a DARK HOLE until we cannot even able to scream for help.

Jesus said: "The thief comes to steal, to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." John 10:10

Ecclesiastes 11:10 Therefore remove sorrow from thy heart, and put away evil from thy flesh: for childhood and youth are vanity.

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

1 John 2:16 ESV
For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from the world.

2. VERSE 8: Jesus answered, "It is written: " Worship the Lord your GOD and serve him only."

In here, Satan has promised Jesus that if He will worship Satan instead of GOD, he will give him authority and splendor.

WORSHIP has become a way of life for me when I discovered my relationship with GOD. It is something that I encourage because I understand that it is in the state of worship that GOD comes closer and His spirit reigns in that state. Through prayers, listening to gospel songs, having my quiet time, reading the Bible and fellowship in the church, these are the service I am committed to honor OUR HEAVENLY FATHER. and what Satan would do is to TEMPT me or make me busy so I will not have time to worship him.

I am a very creative person. I was blessed to have been able to love art. I can paint, draw, act, dance, and all those sorts, that's why I got addicted to TELEVISION AND MOVIES. This is where the authority of SATAN came in my life when i have become addicted to it. It is okay to watch the telly but it shouldnt take your time from reading the BIBLE at some point. Before I became a CHRISTIAN; television, movies, playstation, and the likes are my passion. I can stay at home all day doing this and probably in the verge of being a coach potatoe someday. PRAISE GOD, I learned to value my life as a Christian and the Holy Spirit encouraged me to step in into the world of GOD instead of Satan.

It's been my 2nd week of fasting from TELEVISION. I have committed myself to worship GOD in the morning (right after I wake up and when ROB is not around) I read the BIBLE, inspirational books, write on my blog or twitting christian folks, listening to gospel songs and talk about GOD... gladly, by GOD's grace, since then, i never want to stop encouraging myself to WORSHIP GOD.. Once ROB comes back home, then I will watch the telly with him.

Satan will use a lot of his time to stand and watch us. Sneak in our mind until he gets the chance to know what would make us SIN and not worship GOD. Ive just read this that "if satan will not make us sin, he will make us BUSY".

I know when JESUS was tempted by this, GOD has made JESUS stronger through fasting. Because it is through fasting when you sacrifice the things you want and need in order to GLORIFY GOD. Or in return of the things you want (material) and need (survival), you pray and WORSHIP GOD.. I love doing fasting because I get the chance to be closer to GOD and understand HIS will..

Exodus 34:14Do not worship any other god, for the LORD, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God.

Romans 12:1Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship.

John 4:23Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.

3. verse 12: Jesus answered: " DO not put the LORD your GOD to the test."

The final temptation was to ask Jesus to throw himself from the highest point of the temple which according to Satan, GOD will protect Jesus through the angels who would catch him.

In a material world like we have now, you need to be committed to things you may want to achieved, making us BUSY instead of taking time to focus on the most important aspect of life. This phase has taught us to become very IMPATIENT in a lot of ways.

WORLD has become accessible via the world wide web... COMMUNICATIONS are more modern that mobile phones keeps on upgrading time and time again... People become impatient when 5 minutes of their time became IDLE.. IMPATIENT.. ANGER.. THEN FRUSTRATIONS..

I am guilty of being IMPATIENT at times.. Even impatient to the answers from GOD.. If not from the guidance of the Holy Spirit, I would not be where I am right now doing this blog.. I would probably concentrate on trying to find a JOB that will make use of my IDLE TIME...

But Praise GOD, I started to PATIENTLY WAIT for GOD's answers... I started to understand the meaning of HIS WILL and not my will.. I started to realized the essence of HIS POWER and not my power... and the most important of all realization on this verse... I started to OBEY GOD'S will even more than I used to...

OBEDIENCE is more than a SACRIFICE.. Even the things you wouldn't want to do, you must OBEY.. sacrifice the things YOU THINK would best suit you, however when you are humble enough that you are not the creator of your life, then you sacrifice your own will to GOD's AMAZING PLAN...

Heb 11:6 "And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him." NIV

Deuteronomy 6:16 (New International Version)
16 Do not test the LORD your God as you did at Massah.

JESUS and ME

When I thought I would become a MUSLIM WIFE, for months I would pray with Jesus in my mind but completely try to ignore him because I started to pray with Prophet Mohammad.. Yes I embraced the Islamic belief. However I did that only because of the crazy love I felt for my ex-fiance, an Iraqi-Muslim, and not because of my own belief. Yes, it was crazy and scary.. oh I only knew how scary it was until I became a true believer of JESUS.

For years I have known Jesus, but I never imagine how important He is in my life until I devote my time knowing Him RECENTLY... I have been touched by Bible studies, retreats, and the recovery program that I attended, but not only recently that my heart outburst the cry of my love for Jesus.

I would pray to our HEAVENLY FATHER, OUR GOD and understand HIS WILL and SOVEREIGN POWER but never I related that to JESUS. I've studied in an exclusive Catholic school so I have understood very well the HOLY TRINITY, and I should related JESUS AS GOD.. But maybe it has something to do with the previous years of understanding Prophet Mohammad and I had deliberately taken out Jesus in my heart. (there were times I would miss Jesus in my prayers but I ignored the feeling..)

I had deliberately ignored Jesus in my heart and probably that's why it has taken sometime to gather all the thoughts and sincerity. How did it came to that point I needed Jesus? Because of an incident in my life that I needed help to improve my PATIENCE and LOVE for people who hurt me.. and yes, I PRAYED to GOD which was the usual case but something was missing.. In my mind, I knew what need to be done, yes.. and I thought it needs more time with GOD, so I read the BIBLE.

I was reading the BIBLE HISTORICALLY so I am still in the BOOK of MOSES so it was the GUIDANCE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT that really encouraged me to read more about the LIFE AND SUFFERING OF JESUS in the New Testament.. As I started to read about JESUS, the Holy Spirit has guided me the right message to understand JESUS, and more than that, now I could see JESUS' GLORY, the most important part of being a CHRISTIAN.. the assurance of the forgiveness of my sins and lead me to ETERNAL LIFE.. THROUGH HIM AND IN HIM ALONE SHALL MY STRENGTH WILL COME FROM..

I have known JOHN 3:16 since I became a Christian but the revelation I've had recently with JESUS as my knight and shining armour has been the best part of my spiritual journey recently.. Because now I can speak about him from the deepest part of my HEART where JESUS LIVES

If you read my blog, GOD is the center of my salvation and describing GOD's glory in my life has been very easy to write down. Understanding I need JESUS to fill up my faith but sincerity was not too close to my heart. However I KNOW IT WAS A PART OF MY FAITH THAT I NEEDED TO IMPROVE, SO GOD DID ANSWER THIS PART and PRAISE AND ALL PRAISES TO GOD, He has finally introduced me to his one and only son who rescued me from my miseries and frustrations.

GOD was true to HIS WORDS when he brought Jesus on EARTH. For His people to realized how much love He could give us that He has to let us SEE, FEEL AND REALIZED that GOD could be LIKE ONE OF US who experienced JOY, SORROW, LOVE and HARDWORK (when he became a CARPENTER).. IT WAS AMAZING, ISNT IT? I thought I've seen more but truly, GOD will never stop revealing HIMSELF to us.. through the gifts of LIFE..

From here on, I started to relate my life with what JESUS went through. From the joy that Mother Mary and Joseph has given HIM during His childhood until his 30TH, to the pain and sacrifices he has to overcome for the GLORY OF HIS FATHER ..

Just like Jesus, I needed the pain and sacrifices to let GOD know how much I could take in order to fulfill my purpose, to HONOR HIS GLORY and improve my FAITH in HIM..

And to consider pain and sacrifices as part of HIS PLAN for me just like when JESUS accomplished his purpose to shed blood for the assurance of the forgiveness of my sins and enter the Kingdom of GOD..

i can now SHOUT OUT TO THE WORLD after I truly understand this.. from the deepest part of my SOUL...

I AM IRREVOCABLY IN LOVE WITH JESUS.. you are my only WAY to OUR FATHER, the TRUTH you will always reveal to me, and MY LIFE will be devoted to you ..

PHILIPPIANS 1: 21 - For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain

UNIMAGINABLE LIFE OF RICHNESS

after I became a follower of Jesus Christ, a sister in faith has sent me a text message, "be ready to witness an amazing journey of your life..." and another testimony who has mentioned that "abundance of life shall be given to people who believe in Him."

i thought for sometime that oh so I will soon get all the things I never had and that I may become rich as GOD even said, (jeremiah 29:11)"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you.. AND STOP! so prosper for me is to get rich!

well I wasnt thinking directly to get really rich at that time, but as a young christian, my thoughts are here and there.. amazed and really caught up with the wonders of inner joy and peace which I havent experience before. So the Bible reading are a bit surreal and all are getting into my head at the same time, I was thinking since I am getting better in faith, GOD will give me everything i NEED and WANT..

All superficial.. all that is materialistic.. all that is ME... ME ... ME .. AND ME..

I am a true witness that when you SEEK GOD, he will guide you through the HOLY SPIRIT.. by the GRACE of GOD, the Holy Spirit has done wonders to my faith eversince I have become one.. As I always seek HIS guidance and wisdom to understand the messages He would like to converse in my life, i began to WANDER HIS THOUGHTS..

i began to believe that FAITH ALONE HEALED ME FROM MY SINS AND ASSURED THE FORGIVENESS and SALVATION. By faith in the blood of Jesus Christ one is saved (Rom. 3:25) WHY faith i asked myself a number of times, but IT IS FAITH.. and GOD says so, who has made you and everything around you, says so.. when you ask and question, i used to think that is TABOO, but I've read and realized that when you ask that is the HOLY SPIRIT who is teaching you to SEEK an answer and get to know more about HIM. A lot of people has STOPPED searching for an answer to their questions. They just easily GAVE UP AND THINK THAT IT IS NEVER GOING TO BE ANSWERED. BUT I dont want to be like them, so I started to think..

Then I began to ACT and THINK in a situation wherein JESUS plays me and He is in the same situation like I do, how it will impact the other person.. I used to HATE a lot of people. I can easily blame them for whatever situation I am into, especially when im sad about my life. I HATE people and talk to them like I was always RIGHT and the other person just couldnt understand me. THEM THEM THEM... and I was always the PERFECT one.. but when you are with JESUS, it drives you off your boundaries.. when you know HE has forgiven you from all the things you've done to HIM and to other people, it helped you become humble and looked at yourself "who are we to judge other people" “Do not judge so that you will not be judged” Matthew 7:1.. and when you know JESUS has saved you a million times from the fires of HELL, the fear of not going in HEAVEN, will turn your mind 360degrees and will make you feel awful in a lot of ways.. But this verse has transformed me and the FREE GIFT OF ETERNAL LIFE: 1 Timothy 1:15-17 Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life. Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory for ever and ever. Amen

I began to WORSHIP GOD like I have never imagined.. listening to GOSPEL songs and singing praises to HIM which I never imagined I would understand those kind of music, but I did amazingly, even the songs are at the top of my head EVERYTIME I WAKE UP in the morning.. do you believe that? YES i do, and most of the songs are HILLSONGs.

I began to TRUST.. Trusting in GOD's promises and trusting to other people as I STARTED to "strongly" believe, "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me" (Galatians 2:20) I started to believe that ALL HUMAN BEINGS are not as bad as I thought they should be. CHRIST lives in us before we were born. GOD has made us and it is this sinful EARTH who slowly keeps us away from GOD. So when somebody tries to judge me, I do not judge them like I USUALLY DO, because I can see SATAN who is influencing their thoughts, and not the person I am talking to.. coz I know CHRIST lives in them.. may just need to be awaken but I believe ALL HUMAN BEINGS ARE a REPRESENTATION OF CHRIST evenTHOUGH they are sinners, because we were not born to SIN, we were born to LOVE and find HIS GLORY.. (Romans 5:8) But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.



and I BELIEVE IN PRAYERS NOW!.. I could pray for the people who have hurt me and forgive them as I can. I could pray now for myself and patiently wait for GOD to answer my request. I could communicate freely to GOD as if HE IS BESIDE ME.. and talking to HIM about my SHAME, MY FEARS, MY SINS, MY PRAYER REQUEST which he has not answered yet or THANKING HIM for the things he has answered. I am COMFORTABLE with HIM unlike before when I used to see myself undeserving of HIS TIME because of the daily sins I continuously do. I am ashamed of myself looking at HIM. BUT now, as I strived hard to get flawless in his eyes, there are a lot of burdens and challenges, I am still a sinner.. Yes.. but whenever I sinned, I suddenly remember HIM and asked forgiveness.. the burdens and challenges are for my own goodness.. to strengthen my faith and be more DEPENDENT on HIM.. asking HIM for guidance and softens my heart to listen to HIS message in my life.. It is extremely HARD i know, but when you get the hang of it.. it becomes easy... JESUS continuously lives in my heart.. as I bow down on my knees and ask for HIS presence, HE WILL NEVER FAIL TO MAKE HIMSELF FELT..

i began to believe in the encouragement of the HOLY SPIRIT.. oh the JOY AND HEAVENLY FEELING it gives me.. EVERY TEARFUL JOY THAT CONTINUES TO LIVE IN MY HEART.. I HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCE THE INNER JOY AND PEACE which the HOLY SPIRIT continues to grow in me.. The SIMPLE THINGS that I thought were GOD's GIFT.. the ANSWERED PRAYERS which showed me GOD's PRESENCE.. and the SUPERNATURAL FEELING of turning my life upside down.. its all UNBELIEVABLE but the HOLY SPIRIT continues to direct me to GOD'S glory.. my HEART has never been so amazed, and feel loved.. like it wants to get burst.. i can cry out load just to tell you how the HOLY SPIRIT tries to live in me.. :-)

I began to believe that it's not about ME... ME ME ME.. NO.. and never it will be.. ITS ABOUT JESUS all along.. the Glory he continues to show me, its about JESUS... from the time He tried to speak to me or CALL ME and showed me his presence.. up to the time, when I became an avid fan and trying to teach me HIS WAYS.. ITS ALL ABOUT HIS DYING FOR ME.. and not my life.. ITS ALL ABOUT HIS PATIENCE waiting for me to surrender all the doubts, the fear, the pain and everything else..

so I began to read the BIBLE.. the craving to know the GOD OF ADAM, the GOD OF ABRAHAM.. OF NOAH.. OF JOSHUA.. OF JACOB.. OF MOSES.. OF ALL THE BROTHERS AND SISTERS WHO HAS BEEN TOUCHED AND USED BY GOD TO SHOW OTHER PEOPLE'S GLORY.. THE GOD OF YESTERDAY, AND TODAY.. AND TOMORROW...

and I began to believe JESUS as the ONE WHO IS THE ONLY WAY, TRUTH AND THE LIFE.. I used to read the BIBLE as if it was just something I need to look into... but I ddnt realize how the BIBLE paved the way of understanding, loving and knowing GOD's sovereign POWER.. If I thought its just something that I need to look into, its just probably a NOVEL or a COMIC book I was trying to read.. but IT IS MORE THAN THAT... I discovered the POWER of the BIBLE as it has OPENED MY EYES to the WONDERS OF GOD'S GLORY AND POWER... UNIMAGINABLE..



And now, I completely understood.. THAT IS THE AMAZING JOURNEY I AM GOING TO PASS THROUGH.. THAT.. IS THE RICHNESS AND PROSPERITY OF LIFE.. THAT.. IS THE FREE GIFTS AND BLESSINGS OF LIFE... THAT... IS THE ULTIMATE FREEDOM FROM LIVING IN THIS MATERIAL WORLD... THAT IS THE UNIMAGINABLE FULL LIFE THAT GOD HAS PROMISED US..

THE GIFT OF LIFE IS JESUS.. and as the HOLY SPIRIT, by the GRACE OF GOD, continues to strengthen my faith in JESUS... using my own LIFE to discover HIS WILL.. I could say I HAVE DISCOVERED THE TRUE SECRET OF LIFE NOT PHYSICALLY BUT THE HARDEST ATTAINABLE RICHNESS IN LIFE, THE ABUNDANCE OF SPIRITUALITY.. I AM NO LONGER, I, BUT I WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE FOR JESUS (PHILIPPIANS 1: 21) - For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.

its the hardest responsibility I have ever encountered, to become a TRUE FOLLOWER OF CHRIST.. not only by thoughts but also in actions.. most Christians fail on this because I think they continue to RELY ON THEIR OWN CAPABILITY TO BECOME A FOLLOWER.. I would say, I WILL RELY NOT ON MYSELF BUT I WILL RELY ON JESUS.. HE WILL MOLD ME, USE ME, TEACH ME AND WILL NEVER FAIL TO AMAZE ME.. and since SATAN would always tempt me to fail on this responsibility, i will ONLY NEED JESUS as my KNIGHT AND SHINING ARMOUR.. so I AM STRONG AND CONFIDENT that RELYING on JESUS is enough to build a Christian life..

THANK YOU JESUS for the gifts OF UNIMAGINABLE LIFE.. It will be taken care of.... with your loving mercy and gracious love..

AMEN



John 10:10 (New International Version)
10The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.


Romans 5:8 (New International Version)
8But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

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