SERENITY PRAYER

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

SAMUEL, i surrender to GOD's WILL

It seems surreal.. Can't find words to describe this unbelievable joy in my heart.
Quite nervous yet excited to know what God has been keeping from me nowadays.

3 valid signs are there: missed period (3rd day), lower abdominal cramps (thought I'm about to have my period bec cramps are worst than when I have, but googled n found out cramps without bleeding means an embryo is implanting him/herself in ur uterus now) , n sore breasts (it has been consistently sore throughout the days)..
God, even those signs I truly love to feel.. If I'm not pregnant then I thank u for that special gifts to feel.. However inside me is suspecting this is it?! The answer
From God's unfailing n gracious love for me..

I talked to him thru quiet time yesterday and I cldnt say a word, my eyes just keep
pouring joyful tears.. Father, as I always remind myself, whatever ur will father, I gratefully accept.

Heavenly father, lend me ur wisdom n courage to understand ur will.. I bow down to ur glory as you're showing me another wonderful work in my life eventhough I'm undeserving of ur gracious love.. Whatever plan u have for me, father, I will accept n lovingly embrace as u always know ur sovereign power will never let me down from being a better person..

To your will, I surrender.. In Jesus Mighty Name!

Amen!

"I know my Sheep, and my sheep knows me"

I couldn't recover from this verse for two weeks now, then I finally realized I wanted to make a blog on this after a twitter message mentioned this verse again...

John 10:14-18

"I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me—just as the Father knows me and I know the Father—and I lay down my life for the sheep. I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. The reason my Father loves me is that I lay down my life—only to take it up again. No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command I received from my Father."

JESUS, my shepherd, has transformed me in a lot of possible ways. It is amazing to note:

John 10: 8 All who ever came before me were thieves and robbers, but the sheep did not listen to them.

Why Jesus is compared to a shepherd? What is its specialty? I am tremendously intrigue with the behaviours of sheeps and its uniqueness why it is always referred in the BIBLE, used as a sacrifice to please the LORD, compared to God's most fave creation which is YOU and ME, and used its BLOOD for celebration of PASSOVER.. must have been one of the fave animals of GOD.. im quite intrigue.. all i know is that SHEEP usually tends to be scared with stranger. they are vulnerable, predictable and when stressed, they easily can be disturbed in their flock.. most especially, they make a GREAT WOOL WARMER for me (laugh).

I googled "why sheeps are always mentioned on the Bible" and mind you, I ddnt know there was an article about it.. im just plainly intrique about SHEEP as the humans and JESUS as our SHEPERDS.. and to help me to understand more of it, perhaps the best way is to understand the behaviour of sheeps.. and so i googled, gladly there is an article.. to give u a brief summary of that article about the SHEEPS in the Bible, here it goes:

1.

At the Cross-Hillsong

FOOD HAVEN : a complete diet of life

Food Haven? What is a food haven? what is your food haven?

If FOOD is "ANY SUBSTANCE" to provide nutritional support in our body or even for pleasure, then a HAVEN is a shelter saving for a safety place or sanctuary.. So once you google it, the first thing that comes out if you type in FOOD HAVEN, is a website full of food recipes and nutritional articles.

of course we know food is essential in our body, however FOOD for me when I have learned the SECRET to EVERLASTING HAPPINESS OF FAITH AND DEVOTION, FOOD is GOD'S WORD..

John 6: 26-27
Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, you are looking for me, not because you saw miraculous signs but because you ate the loaves and had your fill. Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. On him God the Father has placed his seal of approval."

No matter how you call it, this just got to be the "most addictive FREE FOOD to eat".. most of the most of nutritious, calorie-free, healthy, balanced diet ever discovered.. however discovered by few yet slowly making a big LEAP lately in my own world (some friends are turning their eyes now to know about GOD, praise GOD!)

and readers, I am not only talking about SPIRITUAL, these FOOD is also PHYSICAL..

John 6: 35
Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty. But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe. All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away. For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all that he has given me, but raise them up at the last day. For my Father's will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day."

Imagine, the nutrition I am yearning on is ETERNAL LIFE.. a craving of FOOD for my own SALVATION.. how silly is that to some? anyway, this is just me.. and my blog you are reading..

As I move on, there are two food havens in my life.

Firstly, the BIBLE. I havent finished reading it though I couldnt even follow the reading plan I have set for me to follow consistently, but Im getting there and definitely craving for more.. the BIBLE is truly where HIS GLORY reigns.. From the universal creation to the downfall of Kind David, From the loving story of Ester to the adventurous life of JOnah, and of course, the loving stories and wonders of the best gift made to illuminate his greatness, THE STORY OF JESUS CHRIST on earth.

I had so many doubt on the Bible before I had this kind of craving from reading it. But even my doubts on it are being answered by its amazing verses. Its not just Biblical for me but also a Historical documentary.. I believe that whenever Im reading it, Im following MY FAMILY'S TREE, and my FATHER GOD has truly never cease to work on my brother's and sister's lives. That family tree Im talking about has made me stronger and deeper in my relationship with my Father.

Secondly, is my CHURCH. I have two church right now, however both has given me much nourishment that continuously adds up to the burning fire of my faith. Cambray Baptish church and Christ's Commission Fellowship. Now this is where I'm taking action of what I have gained from the first haven, the Bible. My church or my second food haven is what keeps me moving forward to what has been gained because this is where my purpose of serving the LORD will begin.

Both of my churches are committed to increase the number of Christian and bring them into salvation. And I truly follow that mission... by his LOVING GRACE, I was asked to join a new ministry in Cambray church to commission an International Group of Members in our Church.. Is this His loving work or not? or Should I say, Jesus has is committed too in HIS PROMISE.. Jesus promise to where HIS Kingdom is, there we are.. praising and exalting HIM.

JESUS is MY LIVING BREAD (JOhn 6: 51) and He who nourished me with love and faith to fulfill my own purpose to be with him until the end..

Certainly, my everday FOOD keeps me safe, energized, intellectual of His ways, loving and... simply put it like this.. I just want GOD'S GLORY to illuminate in my life where my brothers and sisters can see how a sinner can be transformed into a fresh loving creature like me... and share this to people who are in need of HIS LOVE.. mind you, this is really HARD to follow.. its like a diet all free of sugar yet I am loving chocolates every minute... there are times I forget too how I can follow Christ-like ways but with meditation, trust in GOD and simply, nutritions from my FOOD HAVEN.. there is nothing like it.. im all equipt of HIS HOLY SPIRIT.

a complete diet of life.. just TO SIMPLY, serve my purpose in life.. giving him back all the gratitude needed (worthy of our praise) that He has chosen me to experience His creation..

Once u discover this kind of free food, you are now in w an amazing journey or ur life. Jesus is just waiting for us.. To look after our nourishing eternal life..

Psalm 119:11
I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.

next time you think about FOOD.. let it be HIS FOOD that doesnt spoil and last.. and you think about HAVEN.. let it be HIS KINGDOM where its all free and full of love.. hope your next food haven is FOR YOUR OWN LIFE SALVATION..

All of these belongs to my FATHER.. and to HIS faithful LOVE and GLORY I will serve and follow.. in Jesus Name..

my fears

Sun may never rise
Moon may not even shine
Darkness couldn't hope for a little spotlight
And Loved one could not even kiss u goodbye..

Isn't it a wonder
Why am i still alive?
Still taking little courage
your own weapon as day passes by

Even if grand moments makes the difference
Still u wonder what's next after this
Life seems to get vulnerable
Yet u just can't quit even if you're tired
from claiming the beauty of life

Fear in life is what I got used to
Coz simply, life will keep me going
N when life is there, fear's haunting
Coz u can't have all the pieces together,
There will always be a part of the puzzle that won't fit.

(Sigh) However i just cldnt surrender what life can bring
just cldnt stop the thought of fear
It resides in one part of my heart
Where u will see all the fight I've been to

Imagine more than half of my fight
Is full of fear
Fear to lose
Fear to survive the battle of life

Wonder why I'm still in this fight
When it seems like im in the
Verge of surrendering..
to end life so i can end my fears..

when surrendering becomes the only
choice, a SAVIOUR will never fail to cease you.
will never fail to enlighten
will never fail to exist

Yes! the love of my creator
The one who has given me the free will
To be courageous n even fearful
The one who has all the reason of letting
Me feel the bitter sweet of life





Fear of the lord..
the kind of fear
That haunts you with love n devotion
Life w fear yet for your salvation

Fear that breaks you free
From worries what life can bring
Fear we used to ignore
it simply weakens our hearts

Still, life and fear goes hand in hand
But it becomes the fear that let me live
w happiness in my heart
Its purpose is noble n just for my weakened heart
So What could be more fearful on this life on earth,
When you know you have been given the chance to
fear for the lord!
Honoring his mighty words for the continuance of life

Now my fears will conquer
Conquer my love for the lord
in this fight I may fear at times
But ur sovereign power will hear my cry

A secret which everyone ignores
But I will rise up
Now i can surrender, surrender in His words.
never be fearful from fears of life alone
My love of God will bring forth my fear to him



No more I feel alone in the battle u may give me
A call to persevere.. to win
Because of my love,
Because of my fear not to see u.. not to even feel u.

Alleluia! Great is our God
My love in life and fears will work on to fulfill my faith to reunite with you
To feel u n finally surrender to the promise of an everlasting life w u!

Glory to God in the highest!

Thank u jesus!!

not a creator of my life

It took 3 weeks for me to write on my blog again. Since my
Husband arrived in manila, we've been busy in our 2nd honeymoon
In boracay, aklan and seeing friends n loved ones. Then finally,
A week ago, we have arrived here in gloucester, england..

Its been a humbling experience and giving back the glory to. God
is just not enough for me to say thank you.

Exactly a year ago, I never imagined this kind of life I have right
now. I was broken, darkened fr all the Hurts n pains.. I was questioning His love.
Then I realized I was staring to a crucifix and
Asked him, " I see now, so its all up to u!",
So I thought I need to live it all to Him..
But honestly, until that confrontation w jesus, it took me
Me sometime to realize the he was really workin in my life then
Coz I was still Stubborn n feeling I could drive my own life..

Up to that moment, I just let him rule my life..


Then here I am now, still struggling to live but a big leap of faith
has given me strength to any pain n hurt that life on earth can offer..
I'm not the creator of my life! Never I was.. Never will be..
A more powerful creator has given me enough courage to feel this..
Its everything I want. God to rule my life..

W a husband now, a simple life and a faithful God I don't think I can
Beat any achievement I've ever had in my life..
As I've experience moments of success in my life, there's no other material things
or success in career can equal that..
And by his loving grace n mercy, my samuel will arrive soon.

All glory to God alone!